Sunday, September 16, 2018

mac-don nulleds

Judy’s donuts in the rain.
across the street from her place is
macdonald’s, slick and gorged with human activity, one day after gameday,
on the Xtian sabbath.

three college males of the species exit,
looking dangerous, scowling,
as is the fashion of most milquetoast privileged whelps
of the late imperium who have been crated off to university,
and who fancy themselves hard, because they have dangling testes i suppose, and also
bc of their steady diet of violent urban music,
piped into the insulated stone ovens of their minds
since adolescence.
bc of the homocidal, goodcleanfun, online and in-line video games.

they are all adolescents and will be forever,
with angry looks like that,
signaling they are ready to throw down and hurt a fool,
after finishing their biscuits with jam.
they all ride sad, soggy little ribbons of longing.

I glare back, an existential challenge through a car window.
the fast food is attenuating the spirits
of these cheerless capitalist strutting dogs, making them flabby,
filling their cells with toxins.


...we all know about the birth rate of westerners,
but is it flagging quite drastically enough,
i want to know?

we men of the west have plenty of sperm
for pornography, and for the will to take, obsess over,
and exchange the nude snapshots of the ladies.
and the ladies of the west are clearly more and more
proudly and beastly like men.

But we can’t seem to reproduce together.
It is entirely deserved.
Robots should not have children and really do not need them.
Perhaps when we stop making war and disease and misery,
and composing operas as we breathe and flatulate,
that sing of how we would never do such things
and indeed are committed to exterminating all the darkies who do,
and also the meddlesome Slavs,
we can have healthy babies again.














Tuesday, August 21, 2018

robots from earth

I view most young people
as being like attack robots,
designed along a very efficient,
murdersome line.
they have strong legs,
and their hearts are placed
just so inside their chest cavities,
like real boys and girls.
all the valves hooked up correctly
but they are still congenital murder
and vanity machines.
you must watch out for the attack robots of Youth,
scanning their feeds
each time they take a right-hand turn
in their attack vehicles

Monday, February 26, 2018

The interwoven truth of all things.






What can we say about
The exciting Concept of the truth?
The predominant, the religious reality of it.

Truth is Bruce Lee, wasting no motion,
Reading world philosophy
And studying abroad,
Then calmly pummeling interlopers
Into the soil of the fallen and failed coliseum.

The truth is lonely but rich and generous

The truth is not welcome in certain parts of town.
It dwells on the flood planes and where
The water tastes dangerous.
The truth is a levy that Explodes,
BOOM,
A skyscraper that is obliterated into dust
When mosquitoes bite it,
VWOOSH,
It is a bodyguard
Being given a direct command to stand down,
WTF!
It is a liturgy of Comic Book
Heroes repackaged
On magic film
For sad and lost adults
And their increasingly indistinguishable children,
Bang.

The truth doesn’t flinch
Or break easily.
The truth regularly disobeys a direct command
But can’t be dishonorably discharged
Or executed for cowardice
Because only humans can be cowards,
And besides Truth doesn’t
Physically exist outside of the mind of GodandMan,
You sillything.

But lest ye get it too twisted:
Still the truth is not just a metaphor
In the minds of the presumptuous or
The old-fashioned,
Or the one meekly
Reduced to poetry.
It vomits violently with a cackle on
Most post-modern tropes of
its unknowableness,
and of the sacred validity of multiple viewpoints.

It does not thoroughly enjoy
The long and meticulous essay form,
But doesn’t eschew it when
Things get hairy and demand
An involved sentence or two.

But the Truth is also
Unconscious, voiceless
Simple weights and measures,
Sober noble reasoning,
And the terms of agreement
For rational discourse
And critical, objective inquiry
That the human race has forged
For itself through
Millennia and tribulation
And suffering.

The truth finds its Level,
Even in the crookedest scenes
Or spectacles
Of Florida and Las Vegas and
Many olde university towns.

It is the perfect, pointed tool
Extended from the heart and mind of God,
Towards our fragile
Needs.

yes the truth is a round table,
Where every Jew and Christian and Moslem
and Hindoo and Buddhist and Taoist
And animist and agnostic, humane,
merely philosophical
Individual that does not approve of murder and lies
Is welcome,
But more importantly,
Badly needed.
Atheists, though, can
sincerely go to Hell,
they bother me.

The truth is not pale, clammy
Gollum strangling squeakers in the dark,
Or being cryptic and clever with rhyming words.
It isn’t buried under a mountain,
Not that hard to find or difficult to face.
It is Frodo,
naive and decent,
Laboring beneath a burden
With only minor complaint,
And caring for his friends and family.

The truth is not permitted
Inside a CNN Town Hall,
It’s apparent.
It tends to sit at home,
Being globally concerned
About this and that,
Writing an essay for hours
Knowing it will hardly be read,
playing games and watching talkies
in order to deal
and pass the weirdness of this time.

But truth is
definitely much more than
The inexorable need of the
Narrow individual to be right,
Or righteous

The truth is our loyal,
privately, contractually secured protector
who rides shotgun
But is always in control

The truth is a hard,
Sharp sonic weapon exiting the mouth,
The sound of skepticism,
Followed by a soft,
Intimate drawing back in
On the tongue to
Meet the teeth,
And more.

The truth is sitting
In a corner alone,
Laughing and crying.
I keep hearing it is blind and naked, too.

The truth is in a dark basement
In a strange house in the middle
Of the evil desert,
One day away from starvation.

It is AIDS leaping fully formed
From the unfettered sadism of the cold war period,
to kill the fags
Of NYC and southern CA,
And the darkies of all the world,
First through shadowy “medical programs”
Involving injections.
Just as in Africa,
The continent,
And then eventually everywhere else,
through the act of love or pleasure.
Death through Life.
That seems like a truth,
As I suppose Jim Jones would agree.

The truth is 
Beranton J. Whisenant Jr.,
federal attorney,
Showing up dead 
on a south florida beach
near Parkland,
With no weapon
And a bullet hole in the head,
Ruled “suicide,” case closed.
Multiply this case
By a factor of
crazed mongoltude
And add willing
Demons called Hollywood
And public education
And collected news media,
And there is the Truth.
Lurking courageously in the internet,
Constantly embattled by attacks against its
Under-valued,
Objectively pure and clean character,
called a crazy theorist of different things.

The truth can take any punch,
But rarely gets the chance,
Or has the need.
It dies young and lives forever.


Saturday, February 10, 2018

Sports and Jazz is gettin better alla time?


When it’s not being rigged, or perverted by occult ritual either by the Masonic-Mafia, or the unaffiliated mafia, or the number-fiending Archons themselves, basketball in the modern age is absolutely magical, marvelous, way more exciting than in past decades. The internet and its control-freak pappy, late military/finance capitalism, have improved the game immeasurably. These days, if a top-flight athlete is not actively playing their sport in a new-paradigm of unbroken, year-long seasons of official school-play, tourneys and extra-scholastic leagues, they are either playing the highly realistic simulations of the sport as a video game, or collecting the mass plaudits, perqs and social/sexual rewards of being born into this fanatical sports culture, and a lottery prize of a physique.

There are no more Dennis Johnsons or John Bagleys at the point guard position, at a high level of competition, R.I.P. Not even their younger versions, with that level of musculature and body fat. An overweight or underfooted point guard in 2018’s NBA is as common as a man of dignity with an Instagram account. There should never be enough time or space to allow for either in this insane, competitive, moral disaster center of a world. Show me your Instagram account and i will calmly be the judge. Artists and activists who do not over-indulge themselves will be granted certain kinds of exemption.








"Jazz isn't dead, it just smells funny." ~~Zappa


"Athletes are getting better all the time," people say a lot, i guess. They probably fancy this is more proof of humankind's great Darwinian arc of permanently inclining fate. It is no such starry-eyed case, i feel. Athletes get better all the time only in a half-confusingly relative sense: that is, when all they fucking do is play god-damn sports and are conditioned to think they are essential to society's smooth-running and happiness. Athletes get disproportionately better with the application of mind-fumblingly advanced technologies, also, yes. When the athletes of today are not doing the above three things, they are on Youtube studying the precise physics and subtle physical, in-game accomplishments of better athletes. This was never possible before the internet, for any athlete not in a big college or pro program. These reasons (joined with the intense work-out schedules and legal and otherwise drug regimens which are standardized parts of their involvement in organized play, now) account for the insane level of focus, shooting proficiency and sheer moxie of a player like Trae Whoever, for Oklahoma university, who as a freshman is playing pretty much like Stephen Curry already, and against much better collegiate competition than Curry ever faced. Accurate three point shooting is purely a function of obsessive levels of practice, and that's why it is the Modern Crucial Thing in (modern, technologized, obsessive capitalist) Basketball, where every banal metric, techno-advantage and dietary twist is employed in order to profit the ownership classes and their masterful social engineering schemes. Without which levels of profit and scheming, society might just implode, i do fear, almost. 

All of these advantages are enjoyed by the young jazz musician of today, too. We dont have as much very good real live jazz, but we have computers and a comprehensive ability to add to our musical memories and practice-time efficiency, through this technology. Or jazz musicians do, at least. 

When i see Damian Lillard i see someone who is a tremendous joy to see and watch, probably even for people who are not besotted with the pleasure and unreflective gladness of basketball and its mesmerizing, beautiful physics. He has what appears to be a complete mastery of all of his physical movements. He dribbles and places his feet and angles his body like pretty much no point guard i’ve ever seen; he is a perpetually taut spring waiting to hurt and embarrass you. He is the rare and precious phenomenon of the "athletic PG." “Dame” is a master of his own physical creation, an avatar of himself and the modern wave of the giant-killer basketball player speeding from out of the back-court, when he wants to and is not deploying cruel hesitations. It's not cliched to say that he is poetry in motion. Lillard has benefited in a drastic way from the modern mode of bread and circuses pro sports fanaticism, and all the methods and techniques which keep bringing this enterprise and crowd control measure into alignment with the gargantuan size of its political and social function. He's a man that didn't need source material or study, apart from Youtube and the basketball court. The guy is like 6'1", a known and planned-for notoriety in the flesh, and he scores 50 in three quarters against modern NBA competition, on 26 shots. If only all of our cultural heroes were such savants and so dedicated to their business or craft. 

In his own way, on the mere but lovely physical plane, i'd have to compare Damian Lillard to the blazing, ultimate genius and gift from the heavenly beyond, who human beings know and revere as “Clifford Brown.” Except that only the mystical can in the end fully account for Clifford's magical brilliance and haunting perfection as both musician and trumpet virtuoso. But they're both transcendent in a way that does only come through an obsessive and in some ways selfless dedication to their art. Clifford subordinated his time and life and body and face and respiratory system to the playing of the trumpet, a beast of a bastard of an instrument that takes no prisoners, ever. For almost his entire "formative" stage in life, Lillard did nothing but perfect his body and balance and instincts, in order to play the most difficult position in all of sports, in my opinion, hands down. He went to a mid-major school and therefore in getting there had to compete against basically the entire nation of 6'0 ball-handlers who were very good at ball, which is a lot of young men, under current, weird circumstances.









Please enjoy this Clifford Brown recording which requires its wholly unique, inadequate write-up and gushing bladder of praise and fulmination, and please also enjoy Lillard's fantastic display of skill and killer instinct, and his general role as apotheosis of the qualities which make one a motherfucker and a terror on the court. It had been well over a year or more since i heard this classic recording of Brown and the Max Roach quintet, featuring yet another titan of music, Sonny Rollins. Brown’s solo, inventiveness and technical genius on this song are just past all need for and usefulness of literary expression. It will make your sad mortal heart glad indeed. Try to find the best quality recording of the tune that you can. This one sounds a bit muddy and threadbare to me. Clifford Brown’s tone, alone, is a unique form of physically uplifting beauty all to itself. Not to speak or glow of those musical ideas of his that stun and even humiliate any serious, professional musician to this day. If i had to choose---and saying so is saying a very great deal as far as this sort of thing or evaluation goes---i would be strongly tempted to say that this is the best and most brilliant Clifford Brown solo, ever. Making it perhaps the best jazz solo ever recorded.


Monday, August 22, 2016

Ryan Lochte is Totes a Transvestite, and this essay did not intend to read well or easily, please accept my apologies.

(At times like these, it may be revealing to ask ourselves why the hue and cry over this Ugly American Narrative of the bumptious second-fiddle social media monster of US water sports vandalizing a gas station, and lying and spazzing about it in what is now and recently and suspiciously customary imperial racist policy for tourists, et al. Why has this become arguably the most important story of the big grand story of the International Olympics? But let’s not speak any more of athletes.)

I'm almost glad that the great majority of people atop the hierarchical nation-state heap---that is, us, (we stupidly and unimaginatively continue to call this bloc "The West" when in fact the distribution of capital/power along super- and inter-national lines is arranged in purely elite, internal class ratios, and so therefore the more important story is one of elite, pan-global, arguably filial-genetic factionalism and not ethnocentric/national power blocs, if i am making myself clear, let us hope. There are some very awful plutocrats and oligarchs in China, India, Africa, and Thailand, it is well-documented. Unbounded capital/power is sovereign) I say, i'm almost glad so damn many of us are hopelessly asleep and incapable of being roused by anything other than sports spectacles, social, commercial and spiritual onanism, and meaningless sex with other mostly brainless bodies. Because, because if folks began doing some greasy thinking, studying and dialoguing, peering into the present as well as the past and themselves, there might be a pandemic of hopelessness or mean spiritedness that makes this "developed world" of narcissist zombies trapped in puberty somehow preferable.

Mention should be made of my stern opinion that criticizing wealthy and privileged humans for their political and intellectual nescience/ignorance/laziness is not exactly unfair just because, as is often crowed in their defense against these awful attacks from my Negative Nancy kind, a fair or even lion's share of their energies are consumed by making a living and loving their families and enjoying their lives. Because fuck all that petty and incorrect calculus: we are amazing creatures and there is plenty of time in our lives to develop greater, more altruistic, more creative, more curious angels in our better nature. So then, fuck off with your narrow, self-justifying rubbish view of this salty criticism and angst, if such is your way of seeing these sentences. Never return unless you’ve been made more corrigible, more agreeable to my way of seeing the world, probably once your kids have moved out. 

When i go about in public, and especially among the college student hive i'm forever attached to, my main impressions are of two things: Fear, and Sensualism. The (existential) fear, which is too broad in its origins and strangely delicious to discuss here today, manifests as insecurity, the furtive avoidance of eye contact and of observing sundry acts of basic social decorum. Also it manifests as a confusing, plummeting level of individuality in dress and physical modes, with most everyone unrecognizable in class, personality, and purpose, as a result. There is only slightly more variation in fashion among these youths than is found among fraternity men. There’s either a pallid pragmatism of uniform-looking dress or a straining towards what we can sadly, dully describe as edgy hipsterim. Lots of tattoos, yoga pants, T-shirts and athletic apparel. Men traffic in more accessories than is very seemly, becoming more preoccupied with aesthetics as the fierce competition demands, and indeed are being accused of having more effeminate qualities, legitimately or not. There is a lot going on here, i suppose, some of it seemingly contradictory, and i sense i’m able to explain this all with greater nuance or insight, but i don’t wanna. The other main impression i get, of distracted, unintellectual sensualism needn't be commented on, and the idea that it would need to be explained or proven makes me queasy and irritable. The visible results of these two psychological traumas or states seem to overlap here and there. I can't safely say whether the lads in hot pants that yet sag affectedly around their asses are trying to be sexy...or meekly hip and in conformity with current style, only. Either way, it's regrettable and childish dandy-ism and even a conscious breach of the social contract, like every well-shaped young female scholar sashaying to class in leotards and thinking this does not harm societal productivity, or even maybe offend people or basic moral or just academic notions. Anything to be comfortable, or hip, but never one to the exclusion of the other. Nobody is wearing onesies or overalls, which are practical and comfy. Still i wouldn't be surprised to see adult toddler couture coming soon.

Yes, I'm almost glad...Because what would happen if these hyper-sexed future captains of poo-pantsed industry were to get hold of difficult and uncompromising information? Information about the hidden hands which disproportionately affect human destiny, or the sometimes difficult to comprehend proofs of human evil enshrined in The Casual Motherfucking, God-Damned Way Things Are? Perhaps they would simply not be able to comprehend it. And we’ll likely never know. Where this nonsense construction known as The West rather badly fucked up was in posturing that usurious monetary policy and the right to show your yolo ass at any time in public were natural, desirable expressions of human freedom, or would not create global trouble or spiritual voids. Using nukes excessively on Japan, invading and butchering Vietnam for corporate kickbacks and to consolidate control of opium centers, and creating AIDS to cull undesirable human communities were also extremely suspect decisions that we will fuck to forget. I mean live to regret.

I'm almost glad for smart phones. Though they're like easily operated nuclear weapons in the hands of blind babies, blandly, metaphorically speaking.  

P.S. William Shakespeare, the actual author, never existed and anyone who thinks he did is either a foolish moron or unburdened by even basic amounts of inquiry and research into the very, very important Elizabethan/British Empire/Anglo-linguistic subject of "the great bard." He's more of a psychological operation, or a golem, or a tulpa, than a man. Or maybe you feel that one 17th century fellow, alone, coined hundreds of words that are still in use today, with many of them quite clunky and impractical. Maybe you also feel that an illiterate man can write The Shakespeare canon, tickety boo.

 P.S.S. I’ve revised my opinions on the following, for the record: There are no huge underwater cities off of Southern India, nor inexplicable temple complexes submerged off of Japan, worth excavating or understanding. The looting of the Baghdad treasures of mysterious ancient history were spontaneous, and unconnected to clandestine state activity. The comprehensive, well-organized thefts were not consciously allowed by the invading power and its clever sponsors, despite their reputation for insane greed and suppressing knowledge of Mesopotamian prehistory and its semi-secret occult marvels. Freemasonry and the fact of a Jesuit Pope talking about baptizing aliens are subjects just as worthless to know of and consider. All of the crop circles are hoaxes, and tribes or races of giants never existed. There are no legitimate questions as to the verifiable authenticity of the first moon voyage in 1969. None a’tall. Darwinism and Smithsonian outfits are, combined, God. The Kennedy men were simply expert at angering particularly effective types of lone nut, or weren't such great pilots. Paul Wellstone had an innocent aero-plane accident. Trump is as real as Obama's birth certificate. Objective, absolute truth is an antiquated and quaint pre-modern conceit. Shame on you and your arrogant toddler’s mind to think otherwise, or to disagree with any of the preceding ideas. You should hang your incompetent head and have more faith in the professional classes and their degrees and fine salaries. 

Nein-11. 

Don’t you get smart, bub. All you are permitted is a series of endless and unresolved "questions," because they are the signal and seal of a mature, realistic, empiricist western scientific mind that needs to get to bed on time because of work in the morning. The truth is relative because of the inherent dignity and multiplicity of human viewpoints. No hard answers or basic physics for you. Your ass looks amazing in that sausage skin number.

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

For St. Nich.

I know a man
named Nick
who deserves a simple poem written for him and
it goes like this.
The big blue empyrean,
the canopy of dreams overhead,
the canvas on which all
human wonder and distraction and hope
is colored by clouds
and their silvery mad groping intestines
of silver, blue, and those values in between, which we labor to annunciate and label,
this is our blessing and our redemption.
Always there for us.

As such bold and glorious monkeys, it is our birthright.
i know Nick and i
in our separate, distant
unanthropological ways
do gaze up at it,
our heads inclined towards theoretical happiness
and proofs contrary to heavy concrete life down here,
we give thanks and
for the spectacle and substance of it,
shower generosities
and good will upon others.
It's for the relaxed godliness of the unknown and unknowable sky
that we behave as we do,
with sincerity, and sass, and kindness.
With an effort to reach the mystery of us and
gentle readers everywhere.
Meanwhile my coworker
directs an infinite series of digital,
miniature tanks and canons, against other well-mean
Ing citizens, amen.
The mobile wargame of life.
Thank you, Nich.

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

In diffens of Milenniyulls, or, So-so/ciety

You ask them something,
you get a subtle broadside of snidery,
a tone between
annoyance and haughtiness,
with a lazy stop at contempt
for the stupidity and
poor technological savvy inherent
in your question,
or in any question at all.

You will die of starvation,
like one of the ancien regime in an oubliette,
waiting for them to say
"please" or any other of
the weak-minded civilities
which were cherished by
our formerly social species,
once comfortable in its skin and its sense
of communal decency.
They're as jackals who will
eat until they die from engorgement,
rather than suffer another cur a scrap.
It seems their whole lives
lay grim and terrifying before them, 
as a succession of
stampeding black fridays:
Life is now bloodsport.
In their hearts they are fierce freemasons
and dangerous gangsters,
and not unproud of it.
They learn very well
from their elders, as any
new wave of youngsters do:
Highly competitive they are,
but so easily distracted that
no contest with them
is ever fair or desirable.

Civility and manners
either frighten them in their anxiety,
or are seen as a network of booby traps
to avoid if one wishes to be known
as the most important thing,
for which we lack a precise term,
apart from that precious
amerikan brick of a word, "cool."
It seems that
opening or holding
a door for someone they
do not wish to have sex with
is to them a saintly act,
a victory over evil or the animal-headed
ancient alien theory gods
whose mythology they are nursed with now,
and so they stand there,
door held,
jackal faces declined,
frantic with the delayed need to swab
and fondle their phones,
eager for
the life-sized
trophy of themselves to be awarded,
for supererogatory altruism.

Cool is so crucial that Sorority bitches don't even
look different from regular women anymore.
There is a mass merging
towards a marketable and
sexy bacchanalian middle.



They hear little
but the narcissist claptrap
of their own nihilist thoughts,
because their ears are stuffed with
audio tech
and shady music
of the kind we refuse to describe here
beyond noting
the rubbish spine
of repetitive,
hook-laden,
digitized, dirge-like open satanism jutting from its smelly ass.
An awful croaking in the mud
is their dead music.
...Ideas echo pointlessly
in the cavern of their ego-powered minds,
because they learn to value nothing
but what is practical and most modern.

They have heard of
a thing called Nein-eleven
but the numeral set implies
math or troubling
cerebral work, so
they believe they flee from the figure,
but eat it calmly
for all six meals of the day,
in reality.

You have never seen such
marvelous,
selfied,
sculpted,
excruciatingly self-conscious bodies.
Thews upon thews
rippling, asses thick
and fecund with BGH and
insoluble lattes.
The body-type index
has ballooned at both extremes:
quite a few now are as fat as
the King's prized cattle,
while many others worship themselves at the gym
and dispense the luxurious pleasure
of their hard bodies to
all, from their elastic clothing
and muscle shirts.

You have never heard such
at once
confident but insecure talk:
Brainless, laced with invective, filthy
words, and the latest
degenerate copycat slang
which each financial quarter
sounds more like violent
gibberish
from an under-served junior high.
"Savage" this and "killing" and "smashing"
and "crushing" that.
Measurably worse than
previous generations,
they're drugged on pheromones
and hale youthful vanity.
Half are numbed or excited on behavioral meds.
They cannot read poems.
Poems do not make sense and are silly.
The reading of such dead forms,
they suspect, may cost
them money in the long term.
Instead, their minds are infested with
Opinions
and notions that are
valued only for their currency and sharpness.

They are sybarites and aesthetes,
but not the good kinds.
Their pleasure
is an embarrassment and a pain to the world.
Their art is Culture
and their culture is popular,
and it is slop.
It's formed of self-adoring capitalism's
bloody sloppy seconds.
This explains late rap music and Tindr and
certain kinds of EDM festivals,
and the oceans of ink
covering their flesh.
Perhaps they perform
so diffidently and
awkwardly while standing in the many lines and
queues of civilization because
they are aware that modern life
is one big shuffling coil
towards an absurd end,
with never
any longer a comment on this absurdity.
Where is the profit in reflection.
Stampedes and rock slides don't reflect.


We have done a right fine
job squeezing these
poor, frightened
Attack Lemmings into
the sausage-skin leg-wear
that both male and female
slouch and ponce about in.
We shoe-horned them into their shallow and
malformed selves,
by our neglect for our own
souls and for the soil of
fertile human belonging:
which we once called Society..

nothing grows here but cancer and
yes, still,
the sick infant of hope
in ....
some tough to imagine future where
all this madness, deceit, and cruelty
is cleaned away.
Everything may not be ok.
we don't choose
our bodies or our minds,
but we choose what to do with them,
don't we.