Sunday, November 4, 2018

Brief Note to a Confident, Clueless Voter

"The truth is that these occurrences have become far too frequent in our society," Gillum said. "I would ask that the community continue to lift up the victims, those who are still recovering from their injuries."





(Originally right here was a photo of the Jeff Baum of Boston figure, in wheelchair, being attended by the national hero, Carlos Arroyo. This pic and many others in this little essay have been removed for some reason. A substitute could not be entered here in this case. A more than sound search term can be entered in order to find these images, but as of today, no legitimate results are yielded anymore. Used to be, they did yield plenty of results. On with the show.)


pixels cannot hide the pain












Gwan to Graceland


(Let us begin by wearing the academic, serious-person hat, and resorting to an internet search. Then some hypotheses! Right here we have tried to locate a broad sampling of conventional data on the subject of what we are lately and very often told is a most important, swing demographic in the midterm elections: white women, of whom there are many still in America, despite all the infernal race-mixing. For weeks i had been hearing experts discuss the potential voting movements and yearnings of this bloc. Just yesterday on National Public Rodeo, in fact, there was a lengthy piece that by the end chastised white women for staying in their well-appointed homes on midterm election day, once they had become tired of wearing pussy hats and stampeding against Trump and the fascist patriarchy. Black women were interviewed and they were not happy, in this case. The point here is, if one wants to create an active, IRL meme that is apt to goad the white women demographic to flood the polls against the GOP, then one might well consider the superb utility of sending a mindless but obedient goon to shoot up a yoga studio, with directions to kill some of the many white women there. And then seed the reportage with vague and immediate notions---of a kind never quite heard before, that anyone can recall---about the victims “fighting back.” And of course, if deep old state operations such as this hypothesis imagines were to exist and be orchestrated by men who are good at thinking in both practical and symbolic terms, then they would execute such an event in the very city where a chosen candidate for a key gubernatorial race was actively the mayor. Selecting Florida as staging grounds goes without saying, on a number of unmentionable levels having to do with piracy, an extraordinarily long and profitable coast-line, and the blasted Freemasons.)

I've been thinking over the past few days that our lofty and eternally well-funded Perception Managers, these skulking fucking menaces who shame our species by existing and whose names would never appear in your meager ballot options, would most likely not have enough need or wickedness to stage another gun-terrorization operation prior to the elections. Which they stage, some of us are aware, for the obvious, repeat purpose of massaging public will this way or that. With the exception of the eight unmitigated years of state terror operations which are chronicled in history as the Obama Administration, as Americans we’ve rarely seen such a persistently foul and busy period of evil state meta-management, as we have since around the Kavanaugh Hustle.


And so i figured these devils might have accomplished their proximate goals and wouldn’t want to overplay their hand or shoot the moon, with just 3 or whatever days left until the democracy rebirth or examination, the mid-Term ceremony. (I'll state again my firm belief that the prolonged SCOTUS hustle was not simply a battle of partisan political actors, but in fact derived a lot of its clear wackiness and larger meaning from what some might call "psycho-logical operations," and others, "alchemical/semiotic-based public ritual." Still others might not make a distinction between the two. But as i see it, this is why so much dark, sweaty weirdness occurred on that 27th day of September, on the month's blessed Shabbat, with certain symbols looming that were not confined to the obvious ones of sexual schism and gender warfare. It's probably why the no-count cipher, Alyssa Milano---and what she hashtag represents---featured so prominently and directly "in-frame" during the hearings. Like gender-magical disputes among the sorcery schools of the ancients, what’s old is new.)












How can you have any pudding if you can't recognize symbols?













That Brazen Staff, tho, and a licorice promotional












Trump-Moses dispensing mass-cure for snake bites, which was the point of the brazen pole or staff. Incidentally, licorice can be poisonous if consumed in excess, and nothing is a stretch for modern parapolitical analysis, yaherd?

Yea, yea. Silly, loopy, literate fucking me. I was thinking that perhaps the unprecedented, curiously-timed synagogue shootings, with their familiar indications of being not entirely what they seem, would be the last bit of grotesque and inorganic spectacle that we, the long-suffering, ecumenical, mulishly optimistic public would have to deal with, before casting the pebbles of our Athenian birthright into the bucket. The periodic civics bucket. My reasoning was mulishly optimistic, i suppose. To myself i muttered, "They, the eponymous and deathless They, would not dare show their hand quite so blatantly, two or three days out from the big day. Not them they’re so careful, shrewd and considerate." I definitely would only have guessed on my second or third attempt that some kind of peculiar and random murder spree/unaccountable public shooting-which-we-have-been-expertly-conditioned-to-regard-now-as-normal**** would have occurred exactly in the city and epicenter of one of the most visible and controversial election contests. And generally on top of that, in slimy, odious Florida where these acts of hinkiness seem to occur with unnatural frequency even for America in 2018. Yes in an election that is ripe with prototypical, centrally manufactured American racial tension, and therefore heavy with the overlapping symbolism of our current reductionist, schismatic, reptile-brained, brass nose-ringed politics.











we do not live in a subtle age












#MemeToo













yes yes i know it's hard to swallow but we are very big boys and girls now













Energy fields, Scottish Bankers, caduceus, lost rental properties and the destructive Bin. Big, big boys and girls!
















































































Breaking News from Hollywood, FL: You Are All Fucked























Yawn as above, so below

****By the way, god damn it, if a lunatic shoots up a public space and murders citizens indiscriminately, it is by definition an act of criminal, homicidal lunacy, and therefore mostly should not be treated as a political act. It will forever be an outlier and not a bellwether for any legitimate political phenomena, apart from perhaps the psychological effects of chemtrails. Just because someone has an endless supply of remote-controlled goons that only seem to come in Caucasian, (and sometimes in off-white: Filipino/Seminole/Italian/cosmetically surgered) doesn’t mean that we the people need to take these hit-men with undue seriousness, or be hornswaggled into utter and dangerous nonsense like scraping before the State’s desire to monopolize meaningful gun violence. We got to remember our values of common sense and the innate sovereignty of the individual. What makes this bird crazy, and this bird a clock, etc.

So then: fuck Florida and this creaking, unmistakable dialectic. Schtup untenderly the many people who can’t see what’s happening or who are immune to changing their views on a reality that’s increasingly obvious for what it is, and that is just as unconcerned with how slowly we move, intellectually and otherwise, in perceiving it. The people who have had more than enough time, but also seem to have just too much privilege and comfort to do the work, the thinking and research. If it’s your simple laboring busy-ness and your more immediate concern for your family that keep you tumbling around in this eddy of propaganda-confusion and mind control, of left and right and the uncritical, mute acceptance of hinky mass casualty events and so on, then fuck you for that, too, i guess. You should be ashamed of yourself for not making time or seeing the failure inherent in neglecting a more global view of things, as a parent. Would that this timely missive could reach those most in need of the fucking.

Voting in a so-called democracy under these recent conditions which have gotten so much more horrible---as if by metronomic schedule---since September 11, 2001, is sort of like carefully, exhaustively arranging the dinner details of a date with one’s serial rapist. What matters most is the rape, not the unclean posturing. Our democracy is like, so disenchanting. Voting is like “service sex” in support of the national fantasy of being awesome, healthy and important. Our political discourse is like a forced graduate program of “grievance studies” and the syllabus was of course composed by fractious Freemasons and witches.

So if you do vote, be sure to monitor the results for more than a few weeks or months.

We've reached a very high, sophisticated level of targeted, public psychological manipulation, and of general perception management through corporate news media consensus. Regardless of how efficient or effective this system has become, it is still deeply insulting to us as human beings with rational minds. The oft-intoned and ageless "They" are completely unhinged at this point; they’re not exactly hiding it. Their factions are waging war directly in public, while of course using the public, and there are no discernible rules or checks, anymore. Almost 20 years after Nein-11, we should not be at all surprised at how bad it’s gotten. Mostly everything is artificial or at least not what it seems, and it’s all built on the colossal state and international lie of September 11. I catalog these things and find them irresistible. I know rather well what the fuck i'm talking about.

 The like, literally 5-20 people who read this and are Not already part of the blessed choir that understands things like skyscraper collapsibility, EMT and law enforcement protocol for mass shootings at public schools and their related drills, and who have spent some time researching political assassinations through history and the conduct of power and its smaller but very, very well-organized "societies," these people who are generally strangers to me but are still somehow reading this, you have to realize something. Those of us here in the curious and objectively moral-minded minority, as it were, we are beginning to think you are quite fucking stupid. At best it’s a horrid mental and political laziness that you’re satisfied with indulging. We’re now inclined to think you’ve failed, morally. And we're only going to get more impatient and disappointed, with every new cycle of public psy-op and evil misuse of our better, pliable, optimistic natures, as normal human beings. This shit is not even hard to understand or perceive in the first place. Look at a fucking map, for once, read some god-damned blogs. Hot yoga meets three-named gun-slinger, my ass, i am so sick of Hollywood movies. I can almost smell the location scouting.
Be nice and stay calm. Don’t debase yourself by buying into this nonsense. You may live in an asylum but you don’t have to act crazy or listen to rap music, necessarily.



































happy birthday, Donald Trump. Get well soon, Steve Scalise. Honestly, someone thinks we are as dumb as shit












On the subject of Kanye West, sad American tulpa of the Kardashian coven and their backers, we can surmise that he did not really get released from his mental-program just recently. His about-face and declaration of traditional Hollywood liberal political values and of having "been used" is probably less of an Off The Rez act than it is part of the systematic attempt to confuse and bewilder society right when it is at its most addled, crazy and distracted



































goddam Nazis

Sunday, September 30, 2018

Gitdem Black Nashunulliss


We can learn even from a VICE news report, if we watch very closely. Or at least be reminded of something. In this case I was reminded that COINTELPRO will never die. Advance to about 7:30min into this video, and you'll see a graphic describing five separate incidents that ultimately led to the formation of some federalized, centralized state policy or another, which targeted "black identity extremists," a wishy crime of general, washy being which amounts to statutory terrorism, if the authorities decree it. The sum of those events resembles many other call-and-response religious interactions between on one hand the American State, and on the other, the golem of fraudulent anxieties and existential fears which the State manipulates into being, and which are generally regarded as being the will and mental condition of the people. Just the kind of fucked up devilish trickery that could only ever explain even a minority of people believing the accepted premises of Apollo 11, September 11, 2001, and any of the Rocky films. Smart people know that Buzz Aldrin is a lying psychopath, Building 7 didn’t disappear into its footprint simply because some British newscaster finally said the correct magical words, at the correct time, and Sylvester Stallone can’t box for shit.

I recall smelling loads of hot excrement about the hatchet attack incident in NYC and also the Ferguson "bombers" thing, (tbh, all 5 incidents stank to different degrees) and saying as much to others who could read, or think without consulting reddit or snopes. The events smelled this way only because i got me a sound historical idea about state operations of coercion and provocation, having always been fascinated by the national St. Vitus’ dance of the 1960’s, and having lived with purpose and mindfulness through the Wonderland events of non-11, but also just because these rank happenings came during the Obama administration. You see, if one paid any dignified, sober-minded attention whatsoever during those 8 years, they would know that the State had categorically lost its mind with such rubbish, hatchet-job Strategy of Tension Ops. They came in such number and frequency, it was like the twilight zone. Even with Sandy Hook as a showy primer, the majority of the country never came to properly understand drills, crisis actors, and the complete merging of deep state and news media. It was a scary, miserable time for any brain that had not been totally clouded over by propaganda or the private concerns of the estomago and lower chockruhs. Even the saucer-eyed neuroscientist who studied mind control for the military-connected university and who joined with Warner Brothers or whoever to stage the Aurora cinema shootemup, even his perfektly obvious state profile could not awaken very many of us. Even the Maryland Naval Yard Nikita with his message-painted shotgun couldn’t rouse in the republic much in the way of a precision-oriented political consciousness of outrage and disgust, or even the desire for a less vulgar, obvious, hammy script.






(He had painted part of this weapon purple, that detail seems to have been mostly lost in the memory hole shuffle. I confess to being confused by this incident, it even almost looks like an instance of the long-rumored internecine warfare within the US military)

Yes i agree, we should consider the wyrd story of Aaron Alexis, (11) just one more time very briefly, because it strikes me still as newsworthy, and satisfying meat for the best kind of philosophical inquiry. From the wiki:

“The media reported that Alexis had filed a police report in Rhode Island on August 2, 2013, in which he claimed to be the victim of harassment and that he was hearing voices in his head.[51] According to an FBI official after the shooting, Alexis was under the "belief that he was being controlled or influenced by extremely low frequency electromagnetic waves". A message later obtained by federal authorities from Alexis' personal computing devices said, "Ultra low frequency attack is what I've been subject to for the last 3 months. And to be perfectly honest, that is what has driven me to this."







Note also the portion of the wiki titled “Early Life and Service.” Now read the following addendum or correction from the NYT article. (The NYT is an important newspaper based in NYC.) Corrections at any level of journalism are always very interesting, and potentially informative in what we may assume is an unintentional and undesired way. For this is the empirical rule of thumb for the most credible and non-credulous investigators or scribblers of blogs, when they try these days to make sense of news reporting: No Individual Instance of Collective Reality (which last, bold designation is the business of “Journalism”) Can Ever be Totally Mutilated and Misrepresented by Subsequent Editing and Politically-Motivated-Scrubbing, Precisely Because Some Details Pertinent to Key, Objective, Verifiable Reality Will Almost Always Worm Their Way into the Earliest Reporting. Therefore, Always, always, always greedily consume the earliest reportage of any yuge or dire incident, for after this time, important details, facts, and testimony will be lost, abducted, murdered. But if we produce hard printed copies of some stories in their infant state, or if we mirror cache web-articles, we can have some access to a sturdier truth. The addendum, and make of the stunning contradiction what your keen, gumshoe’s mind will:

“An article on Tuesday about the mass shooting at the Washington Navy Yard, using information from law enforcement authorities, misstated, in some copies, the circumstances under which the gunman, Aaron Alexis, entered the facility before the shooting began. He used his valid credentials as a military contractor to get into the base. He did not “shoot his way in.” 

Certainly in those eight rooting, tooting years of BHO leadership, the nominally awake were much separated from all the other citizens who were still asleep at the wheel of life and real-politik. Further, the people who by study and experience almost reflexively regarded these dozens of "mass and active shooter" incidents as manifest rubbish from the get-go, were separated even further from both the dull crowd and the nominally awake...that's my studied opinion. During the Obama imperium, in other words, most people in the USA were exposed as being extremely gullible and devoid of any competent detective instincts. The unfriend button was pressed many, many times throughout the land, from a critical mass of contempt, going both ways, going every way. Alex Jones played his most important Controlled Opposition role yet during these years, as his consistent skepticism of the many obvious Gladio operations made by implication all the non-shill, genuine critical thinkers look crazy. A clunky but generally effective, media-based plan, of the kind that would work pretty well on our people.

Those two terms of Obama and his ruling faction fucked us all immeasurably. A meta-fucking. The Mandela Effect was effectively birthed, and Flat Earth Theory; the LHC dominated the ethereal and scientific alchemy worlds. On the Hoover Dam, a massive, playful Goat suddenly appeared, burning in some of the most brilliant lights that have ever shown on earth, advertising German Soccer in Cologne and all that might represent.

But on the specific gun-and-state-control operations, and of course the Existential Questions of Force and Independence they imply and entail: just think of how many addled, generally well-meaning but intellectually void knee-jerk liberals you know personally, whose views on gun control and the potential hair-brained, gun-toting wackiness of the citizen-individual were formed during this period of state coercion and false flagging. So many harsh political divisions were solidified during those years. Ones that in the deepest sense define the relationship between the citizen and the State, the behaviorally right-wing from left-wing, and ultimately the relationship of each person with reality: with one's epistemology and trust in collective experience. Collected news media certainly continued to reveal itself as an abject painted whore in service of capital and exceptionalist cliques of power. And that is simply no longer news at all.

Think of how few organized, militant black men or communities there are currently in this country. This is 2018, not 1968.

So another, and even the most salient point here, is that since Team Trump came to power, there have been so few such sadistic acts of political deception and gunplay, and nutters attacking cops with fucking hatchets. Such ludicrous operations seemed almost to dry up once Team Obama left. (Indeed, my opinion is that several dire actions can be identified that were directed formally against Trump and Co., with the Scalise shooting probably requiring mention, and various peculiar breaches of Potal security) In short, black people in particular became less overtly, cynically used in actual tension-ops, once Trump got to D.C.

Think of that shit the next time you hear some gut-level raging and contempt for the Trump imperium/administration, and the "racism'" it is always charged with. And i’ll ask you to keep in mind that i’m no rube or guppy in this line of reasoning and inquiry. I know pretty well what i’m talking about because i have a moralistic fetish for studying and keeping abreast of the state of black people in America. In the end, the question isn't whether the Trump Team does or doesn't express certain attitudes and operational methods that depend on racism and divisive crowd control. That is just an American tradition and a general political maxim, of sorts, throughout time. And for all I know, this entire century and beyond is a clever stage-play, and there are groups playing the dialectical pendulum into perpetuity; by this calculus, perhaps Obama was managed and controlled by the same groups who now manage the opposing white totem of state, the masonic German/Scotsman of somewhat dodgy heritage, Donald Trump. But what i can say for certain is that the Obama years, taken all together, were a truly evil stretch of time in which the darkest, cryptic forces of the State were unleashed totally on our sense of peace and security, and that a disproportionate number of those attacks relied on the use or role-playing of black people. I'm a student of almost every one of those dozens of rubbish mass casualty incidents, and they all reek of evil fabrication and they embarrass me, to consider how effective they were. We’re all embarrassed, even if we don’t know it.







Out Takes with Rick Grimes and an extra

(place any collection of random pop-culture industry photographs here, emphasizing occult hand signs and devil costumes ad nauseum, with particular focus on Lady Gaga and the control of Black Music/Hip-hop, R&B by masonic, Luciferian forces. All of that shit reached its full maturity during the Bam-bam era)

I choose to believe there are factions at play here. It helps me to digest my food and better disregard the slow but methodical murder of our bodies, minds and souls that modern conditions involve and may even depend upon. I refer to the cancerous food production systems and the evil corporations that are killing us all at a faster rate. This VICE video details indirectly how the Occult/Corporate/Military/Deep State is always far ahead of our simpering, self-satisfied habits of perceiving political reality. Thesis/antithesis/synthesis. If they can’t create from whole cloth their precious state enemies, (as is almost always the case) they will simply find those who consciously object to the state or just political conditions, and who organize a bit, and make examples of them. It stands to reason that if a given faction possesses any kind of moral righteousness at all, it may deserve some kind of pass for having to engage in dirty tricks and politics, and some animal-spirits wrangling, in order to survive at all. If anyone is curious about my boiled down attitude on this shitty state of grim affairs, i feel that Team Trump is materially less evil than Team Clinton, et al, but that TT remains evil in some recognizable way, yes. In a word, i’m ambivalent, and quite removed from regarding my own decided political opinions as necessary or important at all. Writing these anemic paragraphs is the most i can really muster. I feel like all this free time in our for-now capitalist heaven would be wasted, or even become a moral crime, if i did any less.

Yes, of course, the open race-baiting and reactionary value-signaling engaged in by Team Trump are to me among the top reasons to be distrustful of it. The mere obviousness of it all is to me something that doesn’t even need to be reconciled, or debated. But without dwelling on it or launching into some turbid exegesis on the objective reality of “Trump Racism,” it is worth saying here that it is quite possible to find a good number of black people who yet support Trump. Perhaps they know something the liberal establishment and hegemon do not. Perhaps they are somewhat more over themselves and their received or collectivist feelings than a lot of other Americans. I can be sure of one thing: most everything in this time is not as it seems. I have yet to hear Donald T. make a tremendous big deal about the eminent threat of black nationalists or “black identity extremists,” whereas the conventional wisdom would suppose that such a tack would be exactly in keeping with racist ol master Trump’s doctrines.

There’s one other thing i can be sure of. The first decades of the 21st century have seen a generalized increase in very cynical operations that have made definite use of black people, as pawns, foils, and avatars of subconscious and overt fear among the non-colored classes of the USA. Anyone who has read the bulk of the things i’ve written in the past 5 or so years will understand this without great need of further proof, or of a god-damned and fuckabout newspaper. Do not get me started on Katrina, or the Haiti earthquake, and don’t consider yourself all that woke if you can’t connect those horrors in their proper way to Jonestown or the ATL child murders, or that “duck in a noose” sniper nonsense with John Allen “Muhammad” after nein-11.

These are the views of one person who does not own a home or an Amazon Dot, and who is not too depressed at driving a car made in the year 2000, with body damage. Take only with supervision. That is a joke, it is just a joke. I love all the tribes of the human race, it should be obvious. It is our priesthoods and our crazy, self-absorbed ignorance that vex and trouble me.

Sunday, September 16, 2018

mac-don nulleds

Judy’s donuts in the rain.
across the street from her place is
macdonald’s, slick and gorged with human activity, one day after gameday,
on the Xtian sabbath.

three college males of the species exit,
looking dangerous, scowling,
as is the fashion of most milquetoast privileged whelps
of the late imperium who have been crated off to university,
and who fancy themselves hard, because they have dangling testes i suppose, and also
bc of their steady diet of violent urban music,
piped into the insulated stone ovens of their minds
since adolescence.
bc of the homocidal, goodcleanfun, online and in-line video games.

they are all adolescents and will be forever,
with angry looks like that,
signaling they are ready to throw down and hurt a fool,
after finishing their biscuits with jam.
they all ride sad, soggy little ribbons of longing.

I glare back, an existential challenge through a car window.
the fast food is attenuating the spirits
of these cheerless capitalist strutting dogs, making them flabby,
filling their cells with toxins.


...we all know about the birth rate of westerners,
but is it flagging quite drastically enough,
i want to know?

we men of the west have plenty of sperm
for pornography, and for the will to take, obsess over,
and exchange the nude snapshots of the ladies.
and the ladies of the west are clearly more and more
proudly and beastly like men.

But we can’t seem to reproduce together.
It is entirely deserved.
Robots should not have children and really do not need them.
Perhaps when we stop making war and disease and misery,
and composing operas as we breathe and flatulate,
that sing of how we would never do such things
and indeed are committed to exterminating all the darkies who do,
and also the meddlesome Slavs,
we can have healthy babies again.














Tuesday, August 21, 2018

robots from earth

I view most young people
as being like attack robots,
designed along a very efficient,
murdersome line.
they have strong legs,
and their hearts are placed
just so inside their chest cavities,
like real boys and girls.
all the valves hooked up correctly
but they are still congenital murder
and vanity machines.
you must watch out for the attack robots of Youth,
scanning their feeds
each time they take a right-hand turn
in their attack vehicles

Monday, February 26, 2018

The interwoven truth of all things.






What can we say about
The exciting Concept of the truth?
The predominant, the religious reality of it.

Truth is Bruce Lee, wasting no motion,
Reading world philosophy
And studying abroad,
Then calmly pummeling interlopers
Into the soil of the fallen and failed coliseum.

The truth is lonely but rich and generous

The truth is not welcome in certain parts of town.
It dwells on the flood planes and where
The water tastes dangerous.
The truth is a levy that Explodes,
BOOM,
A skyscraper that is obliterated into dust
When mosquitoes bite it,
VWOOSH,
It is a bodyguard
Being given a direct command to stand down,
WTF!
It is a liturgy of Comic Book
Heroes repackaged
On magic film
For sad and lost adults
And their increasingly indistinguishable children,
Bang.

The truth doesn’t flinch
Or break easily.
The truth regularly disobeys a direct command
But can’t be dishonorably discharged
Or executed for cowardice
Because only humans can be cowards,
And besides Truth doesn’t
Physically exist outside of the mind of GodandMan,
You sillything.

But lest ye get it too twisted:
Still the truth is not just a metaphor
In the minds of the presumptuous or
The old-fashioned,
Or the one meekly
Reduced to poetry.
It vomits violently with a cackle on
Most post-modern tropes of
its unknowableness,
and of the sacred validity of multiple viewpoints.

It does not thoroughly enjoy
The long and meticulous essay form,
But doesn’t eschew it when
Things get hairy and demand
An involved sentence or two.

But the Truth is also
Unconscious, voiceless
Simple weights and measures,
Sober noble reasoning,
And the terms of agreement
For rational discourse
And critical, objective inquiry
That the human race has forged
For itself through
Millennia and tribulation
And suffering.

The truth finds its Level,
Even in the crookedest scenes
Or spectacles
Of Florida and Las Vegas and
Many olde university towns.

It is the perfect, pointed tool
Extended from the heart and mind of God,
Towards our fragile
Needs.

yes the truth is a round table,
Where every Jew and Christian and Moslem
and Hindoo and Buddhist and Taoist
And animist and agnostic, humane,
merely philosophical
Individual that does not approve of murder and lies
Is welcome,
But more importantly,
Badly needed.
Atheists, though, can
sincerely go to Hell,
they bother me.

The truth is not pale, clammy
Gollum strangling squeakers in the dark,
Or being cryptic and clever with rhyming words.
It isn’t buried under a mountain,
Not that hard to find or difficult to face.
It is Frodo,
naive and decent,
Laboring beneath a burden
With only minor complaint,
And caring for his friends and family.

The truth is not permitted
Inside a CNN Town Hall,
It’s apparent.
It tends to sit at home,
Being globally concerned
About this and that,
Writing an essay for hours
Knowing it will hardly be read,
playing games and watching talkies
in order to deal
and pass the weirdness of this time.

But truth is
definitely much more than
The inexorable need of the
Narrow individual to be right,
Or righteous

The truth is our loyal,
privately, contractually secured protector
who rides shotgun
But is always in control

The truth is a hard,
Sharp sonic weapon exiting the mouth,
The sound of skepticism,
Followed by a soft,
Intimate drawing back in
On the tongue to
Meet the teeth,
And more.

The truth is sitting
In a corner alone,
Laughing and crying.
I keep hearing it is blind and naked, too.

The truth is in a dark basement
In a strange house in the middle
Of the evil desert,
One day away from starvation.

It is AIDS leaping fully formed
From the unfettered sadism of the cold war period,
to kill the fags
Of NYC and southern CA,
And the darkies of all the world,
First through shadowy “medical programs”
Involving injections.
Just as in Africa,
The continent,
And then eventually everywhere else,
through the act of love or pleasure.
Death through Life.
That seems like a truth,
As I suppose Jim Jones would agree.

The truth is 
Beranton J. Whisenant Jr.,
federal attorney,
Showing up dead 
on a south florida beach
near Parkland,
With no weapon
And a bullet hole in the head,
Ruled “suicide,” case closed.
Multiply this case
By a factor of
crazed mongoltude
And add willing
Demons called Hollywood
And public education
And collected news media,
And there is the Truth.
Lurking courageously in the internet,
Constantly embattled by attacks against its
Under-valued,
Objectively pure and clean character,
called a crazy theorist of different things.

The truth can take any punch,
But rarely gets the chance,
Or has the need.
It dies young and lives forever.